It hurts, it makes you feel betrayed, and it’s something that is extremely difficult to overcome. That horrifying and embarrassing moment when you realize that this relationship that you were putting everything you have into, wasn’t even real to the other person. You got played, betrayed, humiliated, and hurt. I’ve felt it before, and my only question is why? Why would people purposely do this to someone?
This is something that I have dealt with pretty in depth when it comes to f*ckbuddy, we’re both guilty of it. We spend entire weekends together, cuddling, kissing, fucking, and loving on each other; then, we just move on like it never happened. Yes, we talk a little almost every day, but it’s never serious. I’ve dated other people and he’s dated other people. We constantly hurt each other because we’re not in a committed relationship, yet both of us are still scared shitless to be together. I love him, I genuinely love him more than anything. This is never going to work if we don’t get our shit together, I’m starting to realize that, that’s when boyfriend#2 came into the picture. Boyfriend#2 is simply just a player, a very good player, who also toyed with my emotions hardcore this past week. But back to f*ckbuddy, I’m just not ready to let him go, not for anything or anyone. I know I can find a better looking man that him, I know I can find a nicer man than him, BUT I know there is no way in hell I can ever love anyone the way I love him. He just always will hold this extra special place in my heart. He’s my best friend, one of my only friends.
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