Fifty shades of Grey is about a BDSM relationship?

Well for the most part anyways, I mean holy shit this book is steamy. Sometimes I have to put the book down and just take a break, or masturbate. F*ckbuddy and I have been talking a lot about it and I have been expressing my feelings towards this book to him, and he has really been taking them into consideration. I think I could make him kinky. I’m pretty sure of it. I’m starting to feel like part of him wants it, and that part of him knows that’s what I want. I just don’t know. Oh and I recently purchased a buttplug, I’m super excited, I can’t wait til it gets here and I can try it out.

But, does anyone have any advice on how I can gently introduce f*ckbuddy to being a dominant?

F*ckbuddy got kinky ;)

That is correct, I have the bite marks on the inside of my thighs to prove it. Holy shit, he held me down and did dirty dirty things to me. He literally had me screaming his name last night. I’m so wonderfully sore today. I was squirming around so bad he literally threatened to go get rope and tie me down. LMAO, you know I started squirming a hell of a lot worse than that…I wish he would have got the rope out. My life is pretty much complete, my wonderful f*ckbuddy is getting kinky..I’m gonna try to manipulate him into getting the rope out tonight. 😉 I wonder if I can sneak and call him daddy, then my life would seriously be complete. OMFG, can my life get any better? Probably not.

Why do people like to play with your emotions?

It hurts, it makes you feel betrayed, and it’s something that is extremely difficult to overcome. That horrifying and embarrassing moment when you realize that this relationship that you were putting everything you have into, wasn’t even real to the other person. You got played, betrayed, humiliated, and hurt. I’ve felt it before, and my only question is why? Why would people purposely do this to someone?

This is something that I have dealt with pretty in depth when it comes to f*ckbuddy, we’re both guilty of it. We spend entire weekends together, cuddling, kissing, fucking, and loving on each other; then, we just move on like it never happened. Yes, we talk a little almost every day, but it’s never serious. I’ve dated other people and he’s dated other people. We constantly hurt each other because we’re not in a committed relationship, yet both of us are still scared shitless to be together. I love him, I genuinely love him more than anything. This is never going to work if we don’t get our shit together, I’m starting to realize that, that’s when boyfriend#2 came into the picture. Boyfriend#2 is simply just a player, a very good player, who also toyed with my emotions hardcore this past week. But back to f*ckbuddy, I’m just not ready to let him go, not for anything or anyone. I know I can find a better looking man that him, I know I can find a nicer man than him, BUT I know there is no way in hell I can ever love anyone the way I love him. He just always will hold this extra special place in my heart. He’s my best friend, one of my only friends.

Confession: boyfriend#2 isn’t circumcised and I love it…

He’s the first guy I have ever been with that wasn’t circumcised…at first I was really intimidated by it, but now I love it. It’s just fun to play with, and his dick muscle, that thing is strong….some guys can barely make their dick jump, this man can move me while I’m sitting on his dick. I really really like this guy, maybe it will work out, maybe it won’t, only time will tell.He’s already left for training camp…so it’s going to be a while before I see him again. I actually hope something happens with this.

Confession: Sex is an important part of a relationship, even to a woman

That is correct, it’s very important. I agree a relationship shouldn’t be based on sex, but if the sex sucks, it’s a no go. Shortly after I broke it off with my Daddy Dom, I semi-dated/was banging a lacrosse player…..he sucked in bed. He very obviously had no idea what he was doing, he like chewed on my clit, I couldn’t get wet so it freaking hurt when he not so graciously slammed his dick inside of me.  But, on the other hand, the new guy, the football player…we’ll call him boyfriend#2,there’s not a boyfriend#1, I just like the song boyfriend number 2. Well…when boyfriend#2 went down on me, he EXPERTLY pushed my clitoral hood back with his upper lip and sucked my clit into his mouth…and I’m sure you can imagine the squirming and girly little squeals that followed. Oh my damn, and then the sex…holy freaking shit. I hate to say it…but he’s better than f*ckbuddy. (Yes, f*ckbuddy is still in the picture, and it’s still as complicated as ever) boyfriend#2 knows how to move his dick…which is surprisingly large, he made me very sore. 😉

I might be in love with a college football player…

Started hanging out with him a few days ago, he’s amazing. He seriously is. I’ve hung out with him everyday since I met him. And let me tell you, that boy has a DICK, like D-I-C-K, damn thing is magic. I literally feel like I’m falling in love with him. Not just because the sex, but the way he makes me feel is ridiculous. He plays college football, so after our first date, he took me to the high school football stadium, picked me up and sat me on the other side of the fence, he took me to the fifty yard line, and was telling me about how amazing it feels to be on the field during the game. You could hear the passion he has in his voice and see it in his eyes, he kissed me right there, under the bright stadium lights, moon shining, stars twinkling, right there on the fifty yard line. That by far was the bests first kiss I have ever had, I fell in love with that moment, and I started to fall for him.

Having a daddy dom just didn’t work for me….

I haven’t been around in a good while, my Daddy dom took up all of my time. It got to the point where I couldn’t do anything for myself, I couldn’t go out with friends, I couldn’t do anything but sit at home and be available. That didn’t work, and plus the relationship was entirely online, I just couldn’t do it anymore. The thought of having a daddy and the BDSM lifestyle really does appeal to me, but doing it online just didn’t work for me.

On another note, I have missed you all, and I have been very bad….I can’t wait to start confessing my newest sins. Stay tuned. 😉

Love,
The Southern Belle