Confession: I suffer from anxiety

I have anxiety really bad, a lot of things I do don’t make any sense to anyone but me. Like, different kinds of food can’t touch, because if they do, the germs will combine and make me fat. That is so irrational, the foods are eventually going to touch after I chew it up and swallow it. Also, I can only eat one type of food at a time, I can’t take a bite of mashed potatoes and then take a bite of macaroni, all the potatoes must be gone before I can have any macaroni. How freaking ridiculous is that? I’m so afraid I will get fat if I eat any other way, it really pisses me off but I just can’t break this habit. I genuinely panic if someone tries to make me eat any other way.